This post is dedicated to a wonderful father, friend and husband ! My girls and are I are such lucky women.
We have been blessed with a man in our lives that is always there, even when you don't know he is. His quiet , gentle presense felt by all of us. He is a man of very few words, but his smile and laughter say more than words . When our girls were growing up, he never had to be pleaded with to play outside with them, he always put them first. He never demanded they be the best, he supported them in what ever their dreams were. He loved them for who they were, and always encouraged them in what ever they did.. He never pushed them to be the best , in order to make him shine ..he just gentley guided them to find their own shinning star.. they both always knew that dad was there cheering them on, crying tears of pride when they won blue ribbons in the horse show, slid in to home plate, made a speech about woman's rights in front of a crowed room, when his little horse lover spend hours in frezzing cold lugging hay and water buckets...
He never complained about dents and dings in car, that know one knew how they got there :) or the house full of noise, bathroom he could never use, buying the wants ,that he really didn't have the money to buy..
No, is a dad that just gentley and quitley stood by, letting them know, that he was always by their side..
He is my husband, best friend . He brings me back to where I need to be.. When I rant, rave and see only the dark. All I need do is feel his gentle breeze , to bring me back to me.. He does not ask for attention, nor to be in the spotlight.He does not ask that I be a perfect housewife, beauty queen, he always loves and supports me even when I know that he may disagree...
He is my husband, a true GENTLE -MAN and brings me to the quiet safe place where I'm always loved, safe and able to rest my weary soul...
I love you my gentle-man , thank you for letting me fly ..!
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Saturday, May 1, 2010
I Love You
Been few weeks since my last post and I'm so Happy to say , that I've been too busy to do so !!
Over the two weeks my life has been a whirlwind of joy! Never in my life have I experienced such love, human compassion and kindness, as I have over the past two weeks...From the beginning my blog has expressed my deep desire for healing. Healing for my daughter, our planet, our communities and for the human race... Well, our planet is still in great pain, more and more destruction daily. The oil spill that is going to effect so many lives, destruction that will touch all our lives. Our communities are still filled with homeless, sick, hungry,lonely and lost souls.The human race is still running trying to catch up with yesterday, while never having the time to enjoy today.. There is still corruption, greed, crime and headlines flashing daily with horrible deeds done to another. I may be seen as someone that lives in a little world of my own, la-la land is what some would label it..Hm mm...well you know la-la land is much happier place to be then and blah -blah land :) Because you know what? I have experienced a world over the past few weeks that many many would give anything to live in..
My little world has grown bigger and faster than I could of ever dreamt.. It started with my commitment to the healing of my daughter.. to help her receive the healing that insurance won't pay for.. When I first en counted the dollar amount that we would need to come up with .I was frightened, angry and did not know how we would ever be able to get her to the Gerson Clinic. I have not once lost faith or belief in the knowledge that this time around , her only true way to complete healing was to heal body, mind and spirit..
To detox, and nourish her body with organic foods, juices, and supplements that her body so badly needs.
I feel this as strongly as , I feel that chemo , radiation are not the answer...How can a body with dis-ease be made healthy with more chemicals and toxins...
The day she told me that her CT scan showed a spot on her liver, and the doctors were concerned, was the day I was unable to keep hidden the anger and fear that was in my heart... Anger that she had to go through this, anger that anyone had to suffer so with a dis-ease that for over 100 years billions and billions of dollars have been spent. Spent on research for a cure! Well here we are and still no cure, and millions of dollars still being raised , not for cures, but for more drugs . Anger because there is no money raised for natural healing, for organic foods, reiki, massage, de-tox ....for people that want to try another way...Its very important that there are drugs and research as they have helped save many lives. I have been very grateful for some of those drugs and medical doctors . But, after seeing what chemo did to my child and her cancer may now be in her liver...I just can't close my eyes and let that happen again...How can her liver that is already toxic , heal when being pumped full of chemo?
Well!!! The day I got that news ,my emotions roared out like a wounded lion....
Two weeks later I'm still roaring , but not from wounds. But from love, hope and the unwavering conviction that my daughter is going to heal...completely heal, and that she is going to heal with love, nourishment, nature, and with Gods Healing Foods...
The most beautiful souls have been sent to her by God , to assist us in getting her the healing she so needs and deserves. I know that many do not believe in her healing path, nor does she or I pass judgement on them. No one knows what they would do, unless they have walked in her shoes, felt what she has felt, cried like she's cried. And no mother on this earth knows what they would do until they walk in my shoes, to see their child go through what she did, to hear her cry, to wipe away her tears and try to sooth her fears!!!!
SO from the bottom of my heart I say thank you to all of you that support and love my daughter. For giving our whole family hope. We do not ask that you believe, just that you believe in her, her love for life, family , God and that she will pay the healing forward !!! For any that do not support her path taken, I understand.. It is always scary to take the path less traveled ..But none of us should ever have to travel any path alone...
Sending love to all on this Beautiful Night
Over the two weeks my life has been a whirlwind of joy! Never in my life have I experienced such love, human compassion and kindness, as I have over the past two weeks...From the beginning my blog has expressed my deep desire for healing. Healing for my daughter, our planet, our communities and for the human race... Well, our planet is still in great pain, more and more destruction daily. The oil spill that is going to effect so many lives, destruction that will touch all our lives. Our communities are still filled with homeless, sick, hungry,lonely and lost souls.The human race is still running trying to catch up with yesterday, while never having the time to enjoy today.. There is still corruption, greed, crime and headlines flashing daily with horrible deeds done to another. I may be seen as someone that lives in a little world of my own, la-la land is what some would label it..Hm mm...well you know la-la land is much happier place to be then and blah -blah land :) Because you know what? I have experienced a world over the past few weeks that many many would give anything to live in..
My little world has grown bigger and faster than I could of ever dreamt.. It started with my commitment to the healing of my daughter.. to help her receive the healing that insurance won't pay for.. When I first en counted the dollar amount that we would need to come up with .I was frightened, angry and did not know how we would ever be able to get her to the Gerson Clinic. I have not once lost faith or belief in the knowledge that this time around , her only true way to complete healing was to heal body, mind and spirit..
To detox, and nourish her body with organic foods, juices, and supplements that her body so badly needs.
I feel this as strongly as , I feel that chemo , radiation are not the answer...How can a body with dis-ease be made healthy with more chemicals and toxins...
The day she told me that her CT scan showed a spot on her liver, and the doctors were concerned, was the day I was unable to keep hidden the anger and fear that was in my heart... Anger that she had to go through this, anger that anyone had to suffer so with a dis-ease that for over 100 years billions and billions of dollars have been spent. Spent on research for a cure! Well here we are and still no cure, and millions of dollars still being raised , not for cures, but for more drugs . Anger because there is no money raised for natural healing, for organic foods, reiki, massage, de-tox ....for people that want to try another way...Its very important that there are drugs and research as they have helped save many lives. I have been very grateful for some of those drugs and medical doctors . But, after seeing what chemo did to my child and her cancer may now be in her liver...I just can't close my eyes and let that happen again...How can her liver that is already toxic , heal when being pumped full of chemo?
Well!!! The day I got that news ,my emotions roared out like a wounded lion....
Two weeks later I'm still roaring , but not from wounds. But from love, hope and the unwavering conviction that my daughter is going to heal...completely heal, and that she is going to heal with love, nourishment, nature, and with Gods Healing Foods...
The most beautiful souls have been sent to her by God , to assist us in getting her the healing she so needs and deserves. I know that many do not believe in her healing path, nor does she or I pass judgement on them. No one knows what they would do, unless they have walked in her shoes, felt what she has felt, cried like she's cried. And no mother on this earth knows what they would do until they walk in my shoes, to see their child go through what she did, to hear her cry, to wipe away her tears and try to sooth her fears!!!!
SO from the bottom of my heart I say thank you to all of you that support and love my daughter. For giving our whole family hope. We do not ask that you believe, just that you believe in her, her love for life, family , God and that she will pay the healing forward !!! For any that do not support her path taken, I understand.. It is always scary to take the path less traveled ..But none of us should ever have to travel any path alone...
Sending love to all on this Beautiful Night
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Beautiful Day
Sunday Blessings
Todd, Kylee, Joey and Jessie
Was great day playing at play ground with Joey and Jessie, while Ky played hockey,with Todd cheering her on
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Path Less Traveled
Sun is shining, birds singing, grass greening , coffee on! My list is long today, time has no meaning, the words I write in my journal tonight have yet to be thought of. The people I will meet, the smiles I will give and receive are but in my imagination, but I know it will be so, as, if I put it out there, I will receive all that I dream of . Every person I encounter throughout this day will have a story to tell, some will speak their story, while others wear upon their face. The way they tell their story may be with a smile, a skip to their step or will a frown, angry gesture, face to the ground. As I venture out in to the world today, I know that I will meet with encouragement, as well as whispered hushing behind my back. Some will tell me that my beliefs are based on fear,hope, dreams,and that my beliefs are not backed by society in general. I can choose to listen, changing my beliefs to what is known and excepted or I can forge on, head held high, and follow my heart and spirit ! It does not mean that they are wrong , or that they don't care ..it only means that is even more of a reason for me to STAY true to ME!! I can and will stay on this path to healing my daughter! I feel it so deeply! Not out fear, but out of HOPE !! Hope to share with many , through the blessing we have all been gifted with, but for so so long have closed our hearts and minds too! The Healing Foods from Gods Garden of Love!!!
Walking a the path less traveled is not easy, without its roadblocks or boulders to move, but it does not mean that it can't work !! It is going to take alot of work to raise money, to keep the doomsayers at bay (Doctors carrring little black bag of magic drugs) . But we're ready! The " The Green that Heals" fundraising has begun! So before I put on sneakers, and head down the path , I start the day with this prayer ! Thank you, you have shown me what I could not see, helped me hear what I could not hear and given me what has always been there !!
Walking a the path less traveled is not easy, without its roadblocks or boulders to move, but it does not mean that it can't work !! It is going to take alot of work to raise money, to keep the doomsayers at bay (Doctors carrring little black bag of magic drugs) . But we're ready! The " The Green that Heals" fundraising has begun! So before I put on sneakers, and head down the path , I start the day with this prayer ! Thank you, you have shown me what I could not see, helped me hear what I could not hear and given me what has always been there !!
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
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