With the dawn of a new day, sounds of my husband packing up his lunch,brewing coffee, and other routine tasks to beginning the day. Watching him, nothing from my blog post had shattered him,no twenty questions concerning my unhappiness. Deep breath taken, sky not falling,no number to therapist left on kitchen table.
Starting a Happiness Project has nothing to do with being Unhappy. We all define Happiness in different ways. Happiness to me is a palette of colors, being in charge of the paint brush. Excepting my true self, forgiving myself if one day my Happiness is a different color,as well as the days when the canvas is blank. The blank days are the hardest for me and cause the set in of doubts and fears to dictate my actions,or rather inactions. I titled todays blog "Baby Steps, Learning to Walk Before I Can Run," as that is the down fall of so many blank canvas's in our attic's. One day I feel like Opah, the next a Doctor Phil project. I start everything and never finish anything! My coffee table covered with books, music, crayons, journals, empty scrapbooks and late night munchie crumbs ( the wine glass not mine.)
No longer am I willing to live an unfinshished life, staring at blank canvas's. I may totally fail with this Happiness Project, but I will finish it. My deepest desire is that many will join me, regardless, I've read and seen enough to know that " One Can Make a Difference." Really watch a baby learning to walk, slowly one foot in front of the other, smiling ,laughing. They stumble,get bruised and cry, but they always get back up.Do we call that baby a failure because it may of taken months for them to learn to run? Ya Ha! From the moment I learned to run, I forgot how to walk....
Happiness Project , Day One...
Pick one small baby step you can take TODAY.. not tomorrow, or this weekend , but TODAY..
My baby step is to clean off my coffee table.... lay out a large blank poster board , write the words Happiness Project on it.. get up and walk slowly though my day...
